UPDATE: Life as I now know it

Well, life has definitely been a challenge lately, that should explain the serious lack in posting for a long time. Currently I am living in my dad's basement. Not the best place in the world to be but at least I have a roof over my head. I went to the singles ward today and it was a good day. I was spiritually fed for sure. It is interesting how at times you go to church expecting to gain one thing and come home with something completely different. I must say, I was expecting to only mildly enjoy church since that is how it has been for me for a long time. Most of my life I have felt like an outcast, like I wasn't really wanted or needed and if I wasn't there, well, it wouldn't have really mattered. I felt so welcomed in this ward and was able to sit down with the bishop after church and discuss with him some of my concerns. I cried a bit over the 3 hours of church but they were cleansing tears and it was good. I know things aren't going to be perfect anytime soon, but I know there are a lot of things that I can improve on and that my happiness depends on the amount of effort and the attitude I have towards the gospel. I was reading a talk by President Dieter F. Uchtdorf today on discipleship. I love how he is so eloquent he is and how he says things how they are and doesn't sugar coat anything! He said,
"Let us remember on this Palm Sunday, during this Easter season, and always that the restored gospel of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ has the power to fill any emptiness, heal any wound, and bridge any vale of sorrow. It is the way of hope, faith, and trust in the Lord. The gospel of Jesus Christ is taught in its fulness in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. This Church is led by a living prophet, authorized by the Lord Jesus Christ to provide direction and guidance to help us face the challenges of our day, as serious as they may be."
I can't wait to be able to go to the temple again! What a great blessing the temples are in our lives! Not only does it give us the opportunity to serve our ancestors but it also gives us the opportunity to receive personal revelation and guidance from our loving Heavenly Father. I may not have the best earthly father, but I can take comfort in knowing that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and cares about what happens to me.